|The memories have always and will always be frozen in my mind.|
Everything said and done, always there...
|Below are many images/drawings/paintings of artists from here, showing their amazing and beautiful work.|
I don't know if anyone from the groups I had joined at one time, will see this, but hope so...
Due to illness and other things going on over the last few months, I found I had no time for submitting to groups as well as my gallery, or reply to messages from the groups I joined, so I had to leave.
I hadn't said anything about being ill for a few months, so no-one knew until recently, but I wanted to keep trying.
I should be OK now, but I still need my spare time, to make time for those I love and care for, as I always promise that I will.
All my features on here, numbers 1-5, are works of others on here, not just my watchers.
I don't manage to do as many as I had before, but now and then I add to the features.
There is some amazing work here on DA, so varied and I like to show their great works for others to notice too.
Art to me is as important as my life - I respect both.
I never say I will do things, unless I am 100% certain, without doubt and that includes now - there's no doubt.
I had my art work destroyed by a very possessive partner in the past and it killed me inside, as I had spent hours upon hours on them all - paintings, drawings and photographs, even my writing. Some I had had for years at that point too. He told me to get rid of them, which I wouldn't of course, so he did!
It deterred me somewhat, I have to say.
I have been a varied artist, since I was very young, (drawing, painting, ceramics, photography and writing, musical instruments too), so I soak in others' art too and love to add it as and when.
Art is a 'feeling free' experience. It is exciting. No artist should feel restricted. Art is for viewing, feeling as though you are inside it often and for reflection of all things around, plus many other reasons, no matter who fav's it, or who admires it.
Art is my passion, it is for many others' too and having it on here is the point of it all.
I have also noticed that beauty is sometimes, the person behind the Art, as well as the Art itself.
A beautiful person is just born that way and is more precious. They don't see that in themselves, but it is so true.
A beautiful person has so much that they are so clever and good at, they are so talented and so inspiring, but
don't see that in themselves either.
Such beauty is to be recognised always - it is there very much so, inside and out and that is a rare thing for someone to have both and not just anyone either.
A while ago in 2011, I was asked by someone, if I would be with him, once we were in touch again for a while.
He told me how badly he's always been controlled, he just hadn't realised that is what she was doing to begin with. He spoke of how much pain he felt inside because of it and my heart went out to him. He was a shell of the man he always used to be.
We always got on so well, but I do not do affairs and made that clear to him, that that would not happen.
After a while, he told me he had decided to become single so it was OK - then it chopped and changed a few times, but I dropped everything anyway, for the plans he put to me, when it was a yes, then all change again when told actually no, she's turned up again, then was told yes he is single again and so on.
Anyway, so much happened...
I showed all the messages to a good friend, to try and work things out of what had gone on, after contact was stopped.
Too many changes to work it out really, however...
Anyone in a crisis, needs to get away from it, it is not a life having to go through all that.
I trusted him when he told me to trust him and believed everything he told me and asked of me.
If I don't get to say anything else on here, I will say that I understood what he was going through, even though I am not needed now, but nonetheless, my concerns for his safety and for him to be loved, not treated like a caged animal, was as real as it gets. It was so hard being told about the hell he's put through.
I also received a message to be told how she was planning to do things to him so no-one would look at him ever again.
Is he OK? I have no idea.
My point is this...
It is Domestic Abuse Awareness at this time of the year more than other times, although it's still as bad what they do every single time, it happens all year, every year.
I hope that any males being so controlled and mentally abused and manipulated, especially at the same horrific level, will be able to free themselves to get the life they deserve, to be happy.
The same for those women who are controlled and abused too.
Perpetrators, women as well as men, say that it's their partner doing it, to distract from what they are really doing, not the partner.
Control freaks are partly so, from being so insecure inside themselves from having had affairs as part of it. They are also like it, just to have the feeling, the need to make themselves feel good at the expense of the one they are with.
I hope people will get through their lives of hell, I really do.
I have always had time for those going through hell like the above. I do it because I care, not for getting anything out of it other than hopefully, some at least, managing to have free and spared lives.
Please take care.
Mental abuse is actually just as abusive as physical abuse. So, do not tell yourselves it's okay if you don't harm, because you already have verbally and when you have been told so many times, yet still do it, proves so much the ugly person you are. You are already ugly anyway, doing what you do, but then to lie and make out you are 'hard-done-by, is so twisted, along with all you do to that person!
I saw this image below and I support those who want to support sufferers - I support sufferers so much, I care too.
love is not deliveredLove is not expressed with a fist.
How this looks in those expressions on the outside of a sufferer, is exactly what it does to them, inside and much more and so deep.
It isn't the person they are with, that they do not wish to lose, it's their control over them that they cannot bear the thought of losing, as it makes them feel better about themselves, so they do it more and more and more. They use emotional blackmail, they use other blackmail, to frighten the sufferer from leaving them. They rage more and abuse more, if that object (as they see the spouse), dares to try and get away.
No way, not ever, is love like that, it just is not. Control Freaks is what it is.